Tantra massage experience Griet

Griet, who is mainly active as a breathing coach in her body-oriented relaxation practice Via Vita, discovered the path of tantra and yoni massage a few years ago. It has allowed her to descend deeper into herself step by step. The energy that becomes active during the sessions and circulates through the body continues to work in the days that follow.
I will let her speak herself to share the experience of her last session.

My last session went ‘deep’ again, but especially afterwards with a strong commotion.

Experiencing it at the moment itself as a wonderful arrival in myself.
A state between consciously following the touch and sinking back.
Like a rocking movement on a rhythm that transmits my energy with my breathing as a conductor.
An on and off switch that can be operated faster and faster, like a flashing light and is especially wonderful when it can stay off for a few seconds or even minutes 😉.
You no longer see the light, but it is still there and in that momentary sensory silence you only experience the dance of the energy.
A dance, as it were, without spotlights or vibrating sounds that still lets the body move at its own rhythm so that what needs to be released can flow back, when it is ready for it.

And yet we / I always want to keep that control… isn’t that inherent to being human? Because what… if, we still feel or experience or release that piece deeper… what then…

Still, my millions of cells, each with their own memory, do not give up, and I come to a surprising new layer time and time again: a tingling, a trembling, a new sensation.
For me it is my therapy, beyond words.
It moves me more deeply than words can.

The deeper parts, often painful and preferably covered, do not always show themselves spontaneously. Sometimes it is with tears, sometimes without, sometimes it is with shocks, sometimes without, sometimes it is with making noise, sometimes without… or not always as loudly 😉.

The last session gave me a shot of euphoria; a happy touch.
And afterwards I noticed that a flood of words just came; of which my mind even tries to make me feel guilty afterwards. Sh*t, what have I said again… that I would never say otherwise. Sorry – no – sorry. A listening ear without judgement also does a lot 😉. Thank you for this safe framework.

I know better now; my body tells its story and I feel that connection with myself better and better.
Words are just a quick fix to give a useful explanation to the experience that is actually indescribable. Ahhh…

The dark inner turmoil is simply there, and sometimes it comes to the surface. Shadow sides.
No Light without shadow fortunately. No color without black.
Shadow from the past of deep pain and sorrow. Loss, injustice, powerlessness… everyone has their own backpack.
Much that we no longer remember ourselves, or memories that are not even ours…
Things that we sometimes never want/can/may share ourselves; but that are there and that are also Me and made/make me who I am today and dare to be.

And yes, I can stand in my Power, be rebellious, allow my femininity, but my vulnerability is also part of that… from the deepest soul pain to the light scratches. My Soft Power goes much deeper than just these two words.

And let that just be Me. In my strength and my weakness, in my Light and my Shadow.

And yes, I still hold myself back, in many areas, but many beautiful doors have also opened because I was/am ready to step through the opening.

My bodywork/energy work reminds me of this every time; that is why these experiences deeply move me.

Apparently, even afterwards, when my pond has become murky again and it often feels lonely and dark, I now know that with time.. the in-Sight will return and the Light will sparkle on the surface again.
And that I can only connect with the other from that connection with myself, on whatever level…
Just in Being, just in being Me as an atom of the greater Whole.